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What Matters {Levi x Night Terrors!Reader}

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They plagued your life.

Almost every night, you'd wake up in a cold sweat, screaming and hidden away someplace different from where you fell asleep. You wouldn't know how you ended up there or why, all you knew was that horrified feeling that pinched at your gut and the confusion that sunk into every fiber of your being.

These were your night terrors, and once again, you had opened your eyes to an unknown, cold place.

The only thing you could do was scream in hopes of someone finding you all huddled away and terrified. Although, you found it quite strange.

Each time, he arrived. Coal strands hanging loose and grazing his cheek bones, steel eyes showing a sort of gentleness and voice calming so he wouldn't alarm you further.

“Levi?!” You called out into the darkness only to feel a warm presence beside you and a voice racked with sleep answer your call, “I'm here..”

And he was, your heightened senses from the darkness around you played in your benefit.. You could feel his hot breath against the lining of your jaw, his large hand cradling the small of your back, the warmth radiating from his body. It welcomed you, allowed you to relax. All you could do was sob into his chest. You wanted to apologize, but before you could, he was lifting you into his arms and carrying you back to the bedroom you both shared.

Hiccups from your sobbing echoed in the hallway, his calloused hand gripping your body closer and calming you further thanks to his intoxicating scent.

You knew it was tiring for him to deal with, your constant night terrors that would make him spring from bed and run to your aid so that he could calm you and hum to you until all your stress and anxiety freed you so you could finally rest.

Yes, hum.

He hummed a tune, one he sometimes made up and if he couldn't make one up right then and there, he'd learn songs he knew you loved so that he could rock you to sleep like a child.

It took him a while to become this way, to become used to your nightly occurrences. Every boyfriend you had before usually couldn't take it and fled so that you would once again fight the stress on your own. They left you filled with frustration and at a loss for what to do with your life. They couldn't accept your flaws like every true couple should.

You began to avoid every possible chance of falling in love only to meet Levi in your many attempts.

He didn't give up.

Ever since he saw you working away at your part time job, he became curious about you. He began to visit everyday and would order the same thing and before you knew it, you were talking to him all the time and even eating with him.

Despite his rude and cold exterior, he captured you and had you in the palm of his hand.

That first night he stayed over was horrifying for you. He'd leave, he'd give up on you, he wouldn't accept your broken mind that endured so much stress that it would break every time you laid your head to rest.

He didn't leave your side. He didn't give up.

He was there, coaxing you...You even found out that he would research ways to soothe you when words didn't seem to reach your ears. He found that music did a better job at that.

But inside, you felt he tired from waking up every night during your episodes to hum to you, even if he denied it.

Gently, Levi placed you against the waves of your sheets and beside the comfort of his pillow. He settled beside you and held your hand so that his thumb could trace circles on your skin while he hummed lowly.

With a sniffle, you gave him a glance, his features were lit with the caress of the morning sun. Dark colors dusting beneath his eyes and revealing the lack of sleep he suffered. Yet this man still continued to hum your lullaby.

“Stop..” Your voice cracked and shattered his song.

You watched as his head turned to you, that same stoic expression basking his visage.

“I....we...I want to break up..” It slipped from your throat with a crack and was almost inaudible...but he heard you. The way his eyes widened just for a split second told you of his surprise. His hair became ruffled as he turned his attention back to the ceiling and continued the same humming and rhythmic tracing as before.

As if you never spoke such words.

“W-Why are continuing? I-I said to stop..” You pulled away from his grip, the feeling of your skin was still on his own and left a bad taste in his mouth.

“I know what you're saying isn't true.” He replied after a moment of silence.

“It is..! I can't keep doing this to you...Your eyes,” Your bottom lip trembled, “they look so tired. I'm just dragging you down with m-”

“Would you quit that shit? That whole sentence is idiotic. You know damn well that I'm here for you and I would have left a long time ago if I didn't think I could do this.”

“But that's exactly it!” You rose up, the sun dripping down your face and causing his heart to stop. You were an image of pure beauty..

“It's a chore for you! You have to work to be with me! I want it to be different! I wan-”

“Tch.” Immediately, your body froze. That....was all he could say to you?

“L-Listen to m-”

“How am I supposed to do that when you're spluttering nonsense?! You know good and damn well that those things don't matter.”

“I don't understand! What matters then?!” Of course, his world was fighting against him.

“You.” He made it firm and easy for you to understand, your chest heaving at the swelling of your heart. Levi had rose to look deep into your eyes, drilling a hole in you.

You found yourself leaning further into him, eyes slowly closing in the bliss of the moment. You let your body absorb the feeling of his lips on yours as they moved slowly from the love you shared for each other. You could feel his eyes on you as you exchanged your feelings...and when you two finally broke, he was laying you back down.

You wanted to speak up and argue with him further....but the small pecks he applied to your collarbone were coaxing you.

"I just...Don't want to become a burden.." You whispered as he hovered over you.

"The only burden on me is time."

As if on cue, his alarm chimed and broke the silence of the sun rise. A noise you didn't want to hear. He would have to head to work...

Instead, he wrapped his arms tight around you and exhaled on your neck. He ignored the alarm..?!

Just as you opened your mouth to tell him, he squeezed you tighter and mumbled 'Doesn't matter' against your flesh like he had read your mind.

And then, he began to hum.

A favorite song of yours.

A song that made you grin so wide.

A song that ticked away time and allowed you to rest with him even if time struggled to take him away.

Even if stress struggled to take you away.

It was an unbreakable bond. Levi referred to your boyfriends as unlucky for they didn't get to stay in bed with you all day despite work threatening him to come. He believed your stress and terrors came in the little miracle of a package that was you.

And he accepted you and your flaws.

With that, you allowed for you to matter.
Hi guys! This is the first update I've had in a while JHjhfhg I'm so sorry for being so inactive as of late but school life as taken me by the hair and has drained me of all motivation to write. But, I have been writing out ideas in my handy dandy notebook for when I get the time and this was one. 

It went through many phases with this piece and realized I wanted to do this when I woke up at 3 AM after a scary dream. It isn't exactly a night terror but I still wish Levi was there to hold me LOL. 

This is a fic dedicated to my lovely best friend and big sis espressocakes who turned OLD last week! This is a late birthday present for an amazing person who deserves so dang much. I'm sorry it wasn't out sooner! But I love you and I hope you liked it. 
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I feel like this with my boyfriend. I have such low self-confidence, I have depression and anxiety. And i have a terrible issue were I hurt the people I care about with insults and words. It brakes my heart and I try to control it but it won't stop. We had a fight a night ago where I told him we should brake up because I hurt him and do nothing but cause trouble for him. The result of that was a panic attack. I couldn't breath and couldn't speak. but instead of walking out he held on to me until I finally calmed down.