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Day 1
The past few days, you have fallen ill with some damned disease. It has minor symptoms but causes you to become bed ridden for a while.
Honestly, I don't understand how you keep smiling like that. You always show me a grin before I leave for work even though I know you don't feel well. You always assure me that you'll be fine on your own all day and giggle like an idiot so I don't worry. Hell, even when you do smile like that I worry. I feel like you're hiding something but you were always the one who said couples don't keep secrets so I can't tell.
I guess I'm guilty when it comes to that shit to.
The doctors told me to track your progress with this journal but I'm not going to be told what to do by people who really don't give two shits about us so I'm writing this to you instead, {Name}. I know you love to write and you always say that writing is your little world so I'm going to write this for you.
For when you get better so you can see all the things you made me do.
So, this is Day 1.
I can't wait to keep up with this thing.
Day 12
You fell today.
You were fine one second and suddenly you hit the ground. You scared the hell out of me, ya know? Falling out like that...You said you were feeling great that day, that your legs weren't hurting as bad and your body wasn't aching so much.
But you lied to me and your body couldn't take it anymore. Damn...I'm glad I was there to take you to the hospital. What would have happened to you if I wasn't..
The doctors wouldn't tell me for hours what was wrong with you, so I decided to write in this thing but I'm not too sure on what the hell to say other than that you need to be okay. Hell, I'm sure you will be but that smile of yours won't get out of my head. I feel like I won't see it again even though I know you'll come out of that room with a grin and kiss me on the cheek like always.
Start telling me how you really feel though or else.
Day 13
It's past 12 in the morning and I picked up this fucking thing again.
They told me what happened to you and how you're slowly falling apart. How your life is going to end in months.
You're paralyzed from the waist down and I don't know what the hell I'm going to do. You can't die on me because you always said you wouldn't, yet these bastards are here telling me otherwise. Does it hurt? How bad are you hurting? I'm here for you so stop with that grin and tell me what's wrong.
Even though I say that, you came out of the room in a wheelchair and the first thing you did was smile and kiss my cheek like everything was perfectly fine even though we both know the truth. I don't know why you never cry for yourself or why you cry for me but you can break down in front of me.
It's hypocritical but don't act like you have to put up a front.
Day 24
You reacted just as I thought you would to the ring. You flailed your arms and covered your mouth. You even started to cry. Be more careful though.
Jumping out of a wheelchair to hug me can't be good for you.
You assured me you were getting better so I'm going to believe you. You've been smiling a lot more since I gave you that ring. It doesn't mean the world to me, that ring. I don't believe it resembles anything but that we are getting married. I don't need some dumb ass ring to show that I love you.
I know I don't say that much but I think you know I do.
You mean the world to me, not that ring.
Day 67
We got married today despite what the planners said about the wedding being too early. Tch. What the hell do they know. We don't need a planner to set our lives in stone. I hope you aren't too angry at how I set it up. A wedding at the house and all that...You seemed to be happy anyway so I think you think of it like I do.
You looked beautiful in that dress. I know I didn't say it out loud but I was thinking that even as you were wheeled down the aisle. Those eyes you have kill me, you know that? I'm sure you'd laugh at me for saying that.
And don't worry about that trip to Dr. Erwin Smith's next week...I heard you crying in the bath the other day about it. It will be fine.
Day 73
You lost the sight in your right eye today.
You woke up in tears saying that you couldn't see out of it and I'm at a loss at what to do about it.
We went to Dr. Smith's that same day and the whole time he wore some grim expression like he knew something was going to happen but was smiling at you anyway.
Kinda like you do to me.
But he told me the grim news. Of how your body was killing itself slowly and that he had only seen two cases like this before and both cases died before he could investigate further.
How the hell am I supposed to respond to that?
He told me to pray about it but I don't know if that's going to work anymore. You're still falling apart in front of me and there's nothing I can do, he even told me that I couldn't do anything.
You still haven't cried to me, only to yourself when you're alone.
Stop doing that. I'm your husband for a reason.
Day 91
I couldn't wake you this morning. At first I thought you were just tired from the walk we had last night but you were out and it was 12 in the afternoon. I tried shaking you awake, hell, I tried everything to get you to look at me again but you didn't.
I checked to see if you were breathing and Thank God, you were. I forgot to bring your wheelchair when I took you to the hospital, mainly because I wanted to keep you with me the whole time but they admitted you and said you had fallen into a coma.
But from what?
What the hell is doing this to you? Why do you keep getting so damn sick on me? Shit, shit, shit...Where is your smile when I need it? I need it now so now is the time to wake up.
Day 112
It's really funny how everything is working out.
I proposed to you exactly 100 days ago yet you aren't awake and it's been three weeks since I've last heard your voice or since I've seen you smile. It's been hell for me here and I want to know what the hell you're doing in there.
I started reading some of your writings and looking at some of the drawings you made to get more of a glimpse into your mind but it was everything I knew about you already. I guess you really did tell me everything like you promised, well...
Except for one thing.
You never told me about that drawing you made with all the hearts around my name in cursive. I read the date and it was back when we were both still in college. You need to wake up so that I can tell you about it.
My pen is running out of ink so I have to borrow a pen from the nurse when she comes back in and after I'm going to get me something to eat.
Be awake when I get back, okay, brat?
Day 114
Dr. Smith told me that this was it.
You weren't going to wake up, you were brain dead. I refuse to fucking believe it because months ago you were perfect. You were smiling and you were walking beside me, holding my hand. What the hell happened? What the hell is going on?
You're on life support right now and he wants me to pull the plug. He says it's for the best I don't see how it is at all. How is your death for the best? We haven't even reached a year of marriage, you can't be ready to die.
Day 115
Tomorrow is the day we are going to unplug you.
I feel like I can't speak, mainly because as soon as you pass I know that they will find that you could have lived. This is killing you. This is taking you away from me when it's not necessary and now looking back on all that happened to you and I...
I want you to know even when I never said it, I love you.
I never said it enough and I know that it hurt you because you said it all the time. Don't think for a damn minute that I don't love you. Knowing that, can't you wake up now?
We have to reach a year of marriage, we have to have kids. It's what you wanted but instead you want to leave this world. Who gives a damn that everyone threw you away when you were little, that you were on the streets? You have me now.
That doesn't matter anymore so it's time for you to wake up and realize it.
Stop being selfish and smile at me again.
I love you
Delicate digits gripped the page tight though not tight enough to rip out the piece of paper. Dark sploshes began to speckle the sheets scribbled on with ink from Levi. It was his world opened up to you in a journal, his feelings...His deep love for you.
You gave a gentle smile, clicking his pen that lie on the bedside table while he lie sleeping in a chair.
You scratched out his handwriting that read 'Day 116', the day you were sentenced to certain death and wrote something that took all of those bad times away. You had to show him a new beginning, that his time with you wasn't over.
In contrast to his handwriting, there was now yours.
Gently, you set the notebook back beside him as well as the pen and settled back between the sheets...
When the sun rose that morning, he grabbed the notebook and written in the old date's place in a handwriting so strikingly familiar was...
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So, I have a ton of writings going on but this one was the loudest in my mind so I had to write it and post it. It's a bit different from all of my other works and it's set in Levi's point of view for a change so I challenged myself a bit when it came to writing this. I hope he was kept in character~
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For all of those questioning: Day 1 at the end marks the beginning of Levi and Reader's new life. Reader lived!
So, I have a ton of writings going on but this one was the loudest in my mind so I had to write it and post it. It's a bit different from all of my other works and it's set in Levi's point of view for a change so I challenged myself a bit when it came to writing this. I hope he was kept in character~
For all of those questioning: Day 1 at the end marks the beginning of Levi and Reader's new life. Reader lived!
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You are a damned beautiful human this is incredible I can't even with these feels I almost want to make a manga version for you now but I couldn't do it justice THIS IS SO INCREDIBLE